Mall

So we went to the mall on Sunday/Monday. I don't have the time nor inclination to write a full post right now, but wanted to post the pictures.

See I tried local food. Persian food actually. It was DELICIOUS. CPT Griffith and I just split a bunch of appertizers. I tried everything, and was not disappointed.

In the not-so-local side of the mall, we went to the Cheesecake Factory as a big group. It was delicious also.

Some Deployment Pictures

Don't really feel like writing a lot here today, as most of the news is either of me getting yelled at for stupid stuff or too monotonous to make a semi-interesting post. But here are some pictures, which always speak 1000 words. I am also in the process of writing another fairytale for everyone to read, since the last one was so well received.

 

 

My desk. In a tent. In the desert. How exciting. The picture is of me and SPC Stevens who works in the S6 shop doing computer stuff. He was probably helping me with the Internet because our power goes out here fairly often.

 

 

                                      

  This gem of a picture is a nice little snapshot of myself, my roommate Melissa, and my boss. I helped plan the first battalion morale event which was a BBQ/pool party.

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Here I am again at the pool party with Melissa, my commander, and my friend Bob.

 



 

 This is a picture of me getting my deployment patch from the brigade commander. Yay! Soldiers are only authorized to wear something on their right sleeve if they have been deployed in a combat zone for more than 30 days. I finally can gain some "street cred" around the Army!

 

I think I sent this one to a few of you, but here is a picture of myself and one of my Soldiers who is also from Philly at crossfit one night. We represent Philly well out here!

Deployed to the land of Oz

So I am a day away from the 1 month mark of this deployment, and I figured it's time for another update. Unfortunately, I have been living in a ground hog's day of sleep, workout, eat, work, eat, workout, sleep, repeat (in no particular order), so there hasn't been too much of interest to report.

However, as I was flipping channels last night The Great and Powerful Oz was on TV, which marks the third time I have run into this movie on deployment (first on the plane on the way over here, secondly when I was waiting in line for driver's training about a week after getting here, and third last night while laying in bed). It couldn't be a coincidence. So I got to thinking: maybe the Wizard of Oz is a metaphor for this deployment. After all, Dorothy was lifted up from her homeland and deposited in a strange land where there were many challenges and people that she had no idea how to deal with. Let's see if I can make this metaphor work.

Once upon a time, Dorothy was living in Kansas minding her own business. She had a quaint life with supportive family and friends. It was a boring life, and Dorothy didn't realize how good it was until she left. You see, Dorothy longed for adventure. Kansas was uneventful to say the least. Dorothy wanted to see the world and make a difference. She wanted to explore, experience, and change. While she certainly got her wish for a something different, Dorothy was wholly unprepared for the shock of the Land of Oz.

One day while Dorothy was sitting in Kansas daydreaming of distant lands, a tornado came and swept Dortohy into a storm which carried her to a land far, far away. While the initial storm wasn't too terrible, the storm eventually spit Dorothy out halfway across the world from her family and friends. As soon as Dorothy stepped into the heat of this new land, she knew she wasn't in Kansas anymore.

The first few days, even weeks, weren't too bad. It was a novel concept to explore Oz and see the many sites and sounds this new country had to offer. Plus, there were new people, some of them cute for Dorothy to meet and get to know. But soon Dorothy realized that many of the people in this bizarre land were strange and selfish. Some of them were simply homesick and hard to deal with, while others were downright evil. Dorothy was unprepared for the attitudes that started to come out of people after a few weeks of being stuck in Oz. It seemed that this country had a strange side effect on people: it brought out the worst in them.

So Dorothy took matters into her own hands. She talked to the Glenda the good witch and realized that in order to navigate the land of Oz, she just needed to follow the yellow brick road, and stay away from trouble. While in theory this seemed easy enough, it turns out that there are quite a few obstacles in Oz which make finding the way back home difficult..

First of all, there is the Wicked Witch of the West whose sole goal in life appears to be to pick on Dorothy and her companions while they traverse the yellow brick road. The wicked witch takes into account neither logic nor compassion when dealing with Dorothy and her friends. She guises her evil in the form of "developing" Dorothy to be a better professional, but it really just seems like the witch does everything in her power to belittle Dorothy and try to break her. For every step forward Dorothy takes on the yellow brick road, the witch pushes her two steps back. And there is no reasoning to be had with the wicked witch because she is much more powerful than Dorothy. So Dorothy is stuck in a pattern of trying to keep her head down in order to get further down the yellow brick road, while trying not to anger the wicked witch in the process.

In addition to the Wicked Witch of the West, the land of Oz also has another source of evil working against Dorothy and her companions: the great and powerful Oz. Luckily for Dorothy, she doesn't have too many interactions with Oz because she is stuck on the yellow brick road dealing with the Wicked Witch. However, many of her friends work directly for Oz and witness with his megalomania on a daily basis. Oz constantly belittles the poor munchkins that work for him, often firing them on a whim for nothing more than his own self gratification. Granted, some of the munchkins are not the sharpest tools in the shed, but they are TRYING and learning. No one deserves to be treated like they are meaningless. That's just bad leadership on the part of Oz. Not to mention, the poor munchkins are doing their best to survive and get by in the strange land of Oz without their families or friends.

As you can imagine this kind of toxic work environment in Oz, combined with the Wicked Witch of the West terrorizing the yellow brick road, makes the inhabitants of Oz none too happy with their plight. Some people aren't sure if they will ever find their way back home.

Luckily, Dorothy isn't alone in this strange land. She has many friends and companions to endure the trials of the land of Oz to include a tin man, a scarecrow, and a lion. Her friends at times may seem heartless, brainless, or cowardly, but they are all trying their best to navigate their way through Oz themselves. They get homesick, beaten down, and scared just as Dorothy herself experiences all of these qualities. But hopefully, through the trials that the group of them endure on the yellow brick road and in Oz, Dorothy and her friends will be able to overcome their weaknesses and find their way home a better person than when they got to Oz.

And that is as far as I've gotten in the story of Dorothy trying to navigate her way through Oz. Will she find her way through the yellow brick road and find her way home? Will the wicked witch or powerful Oz get the better of Dorothy and her friends? Tune in to find out more in the next episode of Dorthy deployed to the land of Oz...

Outside the wire

So I guess its been just over 2 weeks since I got here. I've pretty busy with the transition and getting settled into a routine here, so I put off blogging until something exciting happened. After all, no one really wants to hear about my daily life (which consists of sleeping, working out, eating, working, and more working out). It is like groundhogs day here. I even eat the same thing almost everyday. I'm sure that surprises no one. We will see how long that last. Anyways, I will go into more detail about everyday life here when I run out of interesting things to talk about. But for now, I will tell you the story of my first time going off the post and into the wild of Kuwait...

A couple days ago, we got a tasking to have our public affairs noncommissioned officer go up to Camp Beuhring to take pictures of the Virginia State governor's visit to Kuwait. Since I am that Soldier's supervisor, I volunteered to go with her. Partially to help her take pictures/interview people, since I have newspaper experience, and partially because I just wanted to freaking leave and see Kuwait. After talking to some people, I convinced them it was best for everyone if I went on the trip, and so it was settled- SGT Felix and I would go up to Buehring to see the governor, but we would also take our commander and first sergeant with us so they could explore the area too. This turned out to be in our favor, as a stop at Ali Aslem was added to our itinerary, allowing us to leave around 10 and be gone for the whole day. Score. I was getting bored of the office anyways.

So we all pack into the commander's truck at 1000 and hit the road. As soon as we drove off post, I immediately noticed there was a plethora of sand. I knew it was everywhere on post, but I hadn't realized that it literally stretched as far as the eye could see in every direction. We saw some small cities, and the houses were very different than anything I was used to- they were very squat and square. Not what you would call architectural masterpieces. Anyways, we drove by a couple of towns, but eventually turned off onto a road that just went on into the desert for as long as the eye could see. There was literally nothing but sand in every direction. Every now and then, you would see a nomad in a trailer. I wonder how they sustain themselves. Where do they get food and water in the middle of the desert? Our best guess is that they were camel herders, but no one really knew where these people came from. One notable thing about the desert highway was every couple miles you would see a dead or decomposing camel on the side of the road. I can only assume they were hit by cars at night, as there is no other logical explanation for all the dead camels. At one point we passed a particularly intact camel, and decided to stop and take a picture (in case we didn't get a chance to see any live ones)

 

It was hilarious. Not funny that the camel was dead, but funny that 4 Army soliders were just standing around taking pictures of a dead camel. We need a new hobby. After the camel photo op, we drove another half hour and finally arrived at Ali Asalem to visit our two soliders that are tasked on mission there to work with military dogs. It was really cool to see the kennels, dogs, and trainers. I wish I could have gotten tasked for that mission, but unfortunately as the S1 I am too important to get tasked off base. The highlight of our trip to Ali Asalem was lunch, which was at a restaurant on post that served traditional Kuwaiti food. At first I was a little apprehensive, but our first sergent convinced me it was delicious. He was right. I had the chicken swarma, which is basically a chicken wrap with a ton of delicious spices and stuff in it. SUPER DELICIOUS. After lunch we hit the road again, and luck was on our side. We saw real camels. Live ones.

 

 

As you can see they are really sanitary creatures that love to eat the trash people have dumped on the side of the road. Unfortunately, my commander said I was not allowed to get out to pet and/or ride them. Party pooper. The rest of the ride to Buehring was pretty uneventful, but it still was fun to just look out the window at the desert. It's beautiful in its own way, although I can see how it would get tedious to drive hours through it. I can't imagine how people walked through it before cars. It's so hot and empty and endless. When we finally got to Buehring, we got to listen to the governor speak for about an hour. He was well spoken (for a Republican). He also did a rather lengthy question and answer session for any Virginia residents who wanted to stay and ask things. He touched on everything from VA benefits to the tolls they are imposing on the tunnels right by my house. It was pretty interesting. He also posed for pictures with anyone who wanted them, and let us fill out a paper where he will send a letter of encouragement to your loved one (mom/dad expect a letter from the VA governor in a bit).

 

 

That's my commander and first sergent with the governor. As you can tell, my commander is way to cool to smile for pictures. After the governor visit, we stopped by Green Bean on the way off post to get delicious coffee smoothies for the drive back. Green Bean is slowly growing on me. I still will always love Starbucks, but I love the protein smoothie Green Bean does. The ride home was uneventful. Same scenery, different time. Although, I believe we missed three turns on the way back, so it took almost twice as long. I was neither driving nor navigating, so I take no blame for that. The commander and first sergeant said they had it covered. Yeah right. Luckily, our little detours took us past McDonalds, and I got a picture with the Kuwaiti Ronald. 

 

We really aren't supposed to stop anywhere public in uniform, but I pretended I had to pee so we could get pictures. It was fun. I had a lot of fun the whole day. The trip took longer than it should have because of getting lost and fooling around, but it was so nice to get out of my little tent. And it was good company too. I love my commander and first sergeant. They are good people. As is SGT Felix. Good people always make road trips better. Needless to say, I will be volunteering to go on as many trips outside of post as possible.

The Journey

The journey here was relatively uneventful, except for one small detail: My kindle decided to die on the first long flight. Literally the ONE item that I own that can entertain me endlessly decided to wipe every single book from it's memory. Not only has this never happened before, but I didn't know how to get it all back. After messing around with it for a while, I realized that I would just have to restore it to factory settings and reload all of my books from my laptop. While that was an extremely annoying process, I managed to get everything back within an hour's time span on the first plane ride. However, it did wipe my spot in all the books I was reading, which was a huge hassle. So I just found my place in the one book I was reading and will find my place in the others later. That will teach me to read more than one book at the same time.

So while this whole kindle debacle was going on, the guy next to me (actually he was a seat down because we had the middle seat open, THANK GOD) was nice enough to get my backpack down from the overhead compartment in order for me to get my laptop out. He was looking at me kind of funny though, as if he could not fathom why the demise of a silly little kindle would cause so much panic. He said that he didn't read much. Umm, I can tell. Anyways, so he took it upon himself to start talking to me, while I am frantically trying to fix the kindle. As it turns out, he is a semi-professional MMA fighter who was actually one of the stars of the MTV show Caged (I know. I had never heard of it either, but I looked it up. It's an actual thing, and he was on it). So he told me stories about his adventures with Jena Jamison and some other people when MTV flew him to Vegas for a weekend. It was super interesting. And pretty cool that the Air Force (he was an Air Force SGT) let him do that while still working. I guess any PR is good PR. So this is going to be his last tour, and then he is getting out to fight professionally. Pretty cool stuff. I usually don't like talking to strangers on planes, but he was actually really nice and interesting. The awkward part came when he asked me if I had any hobbies like fighting and I was like, "Um, I like to read...and gestured to my kindle." I felt like a loser. But he was cool about it and said his wife loved to read, but he just didn't have the patience for it. I told him I had also gotten into crossfit recently, and he said I would find plenty of that downrange.

So the entire journey to Kuwait took something upwards of 36 hours. Freaking insane. We left Fort Eustis at 830 am Sunday and arrived in Qatar at 100 am Tuesday (there's a 7 hour time difference in there). It was quite the emotional journey. Me being the smart Lieutenant I am, decided that I would not sleep the night before so I would be tired for the plane (like I did before we flew to India). This works well in theory, but doesn't work when you are so emotionally drained, excited, nervous, etc that your body refused to shut down. In fact, it just makes you a grumpy puss for the whole journey. We didn't leave the Norfolk Naval terminal until 3:45 pm. Then we flew to Maine where we got heroes greetings from the volunteers there. Apparently they greet every single Solider that deploys. It was really neat: there were dogs and free snacks and people taking pictures. However, this was the high point of the journey. It was all downhill from there. After an hour and a half layover in Maine, we flew six and a half hours to Germany (which I slept none of due to above Kindle issues). And not the nice part of Germany either. Some little shit air base that didn't even have a passenger terminal, so they put us in a warehouse with folding chairs and a single person bathroom- for all 300+ people on our flight. And this layover was even longer than the first: 3 hours in that shit hole. Although the weather in Germany was AMAZING. 65 and sunny with no humidity. Nice teaser before we went to hell. And onwards to hell did we go. We flew another 5.5 hours to Qatar. I got to sleep a little on that flight, but only when a movie came on that I wanted to watch. Then my body was like, "No Wizard of Oz for you. Sleep time." Stepping off the plane in Qatar was...uncomfortable to say the least. It was 115 and sunny. Can you say shock? And this time for the layover, we didn't even have a warehouse. Nope. They set up a tent for us on the runway. In the 115 degree heat. That 3 hours was fun. I slept a little more to pass the time. We then finally boarded the plane for the last time, a 55 minute flight to Kuwait. I think it was around 1000 Monday night when we landed in Kuwait. We then sat on buses for 2 hours, as they loaded our baggage and waited for our escort to Arifjan. We finally arrive on base around 1 am Tuesday morning. Fun fact about the bus ride from the airport to Arifjan: we had to draw the curtains of the windows as not to "advertise" the American Soldier presence to the Kuwaitis. A) How many people are on the road after midnight and B) Do you think they don't know what is inside of the large buses of people going from the airport towards the Army base? Silly people. Anyways, we got there, had a few briefings, got our bags and rooming assignments, etc. I was in bed by around 4 am, at which point I decided to get online. Needless to say I have not slept sufficiently in the past few days.

Luckily, we had all of Tuesday to recover. I slept from 6am until 330 pm. It was glorious. Then I went exploring in the heat, only to find my oasis: Starbucks. I promptly got a mocha light frappaccino, and yes it tasted just like home. However, I could not use my Starbucks card there, and I got a strange look from the Kuwaitis working the place. Oh well. The rest of the day was spend exploring the gym, PX, and dining facilities. All are small, but acceptable. There is even a gym dedicated to crossfit. I am excited about that.

Today we spent all morning in boring welcome briefs and orientations. I got to meet the LT I am replacing, and tomorrow we are going to start our 9 day transition before he leaves. Other than that, I took a nap and read a little. Melissa and I decided that we are giving ourselves a few days to acclimate to the heat and catch up on sleep before we start working out. We are going to start going to crossfit everyday at 630 am on Friday. I think 5 days is a good transition, and it is nice to be lazy for a little while we are getting settled in.

Deploying

Emilia reminded me about this blog, and she is right. This is the perfect opportunity for me to keep in touch with everyone and document my first deployment. I can't guarantee there will be many interesting things for me to say, but I will try to write in here every now and then without being too boring. I've heard deployments are usually like Groundhogs Day, but who knows maybe I will have lots of adventures, love affairs, and witty conversations with Generals to report on...or I will sit behind a desk everyday.

Right now I am sitting in the Norfolk Naval station airport. We have three more hours until we take off. Who knows how long the journey will take. I know we have a layover in Bangor, Maine, Ramstein, Germany, and possibly Qatar.  I don't expect to be in Kuwait until sometime later tomorrow. It's a weird feeling not to know when and where you are going to be in a few hours. I don't even know where I will be sleeping for the next couple of days. Saying goodbye to the family was hard. I was surprised that I teared up as much as I did, but I think it was a combination of sleep deprivation, PMS, crazy hormones, and nerves. Also, I have a hard time not crying when my mom is balling hysterically. And to be honest, I am not really sad or nervous. I am more excited for a change of scenery. The last few weeks at work have been too much drama for me, and I need to get away. Granted, I complained for over a year that Fort Eustis was boring. Now I finally have friends, a life, excitement, and I'm leaving. Oh well. I will be back in 9 months. It feels like no time since Chelsea left back in September, so maybe my deployment will go by just as fast. I hope so. I was a nice little breather from Eustis, a chance to collect my thoughts and grow up a little. Then I'd love to come back and spend another year with all my friends. I have really grown to love and appreciate the relationships that I have developed, especially over the past 6 months. Katrina and I got really close before she left, as did Joanna and I (especially after Katrina left). Chelsea is back, and while we didn't talk much during her deployment (because everyone knows I suck at communicating) we are closer than ever now. Plus I love the guy friends I have here now Ben, Ryan, JP- they are all awesome, and I want the opportunity to spend more time with them. And even as stressful as being an S1 was, I loved being in 53rd and working with many of the commanders and staff there. I hope I will get the opportunity to with them when I return. I guess I will have to wait and see. I am excited to meet new people in Kuwait. Maybe I can even find myself a hot, available LT or CPT to befriend...

 Anyways, I am exhausted. I am going to use my last hour or two to call some people before my cell phone is rendered useless. See you all on the other side of the world...

The Dating Files

So I promised a while back that I would update this about my dating life. Now seems as good of time as any to do this because:

A)    I don’t feel like doing work

B)    I just wrote a post, so I am actually thinking about the Blog for once

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C)    I just got “dumped” (if you can be dumped without really dating) by the guy I was sort of seeing

I joined match.com a few months ago upon recommendation from one of my friends here at Fort Eustis. She was messing around with the free features of the site on day, and then decided to join. After she did, I decided why not.  After all, if everyone is doing it, I might as well. So I think I joined around the beginning of March. I talk to a couple guys on the site and, after careful consideration, decide to go on a date with a guy that I have been texting for about a week.

Guy #1

            So guy #1’s name is Preston. He looks fairly safe from his profile pictures. He’s in the Navy and enjoys golfing. He’s cute but not overly hot. I decide this is a good guy to test the blind date thing on because I won’t be as nervous as if he was super hot or something. We decide to meet up at a place in Virginia Beach that has a bunch of beers on tap and supposedly really good food. Sounds perfect to me. We decide on a random Friday night (in fact it is the Friday before St. Patrick’s Day).

            Of course, I am flipping out before the date. I don’t know what the fuck to wear or how I will pick him out of the crowd or what we will talk about. I almost cancel about 5 times. This is serious neurotic freak out. Somehow, I manage to put together an outfit and get my ass in my car. I bring along a mug of coffee (because I am dead tired from the work week) with a splash of Bailey’s (more to make me feel calm that to even affect met). Along the way, I hyperventilate a bit, call Emilia, reassure myself, and finally make it to VA Beach.

            Meeting him is not as awkward as one would think. We meet outside the restaurant, so we can pick each other out. When we go inside, the Lehigh-Duke game is on so immediately I have a fall back to talk about. This is good. We order beers, picking out the drink for the other person. It’s actually a super cute ritual because you get to try a new beer, as well as impress the other person with your beer knowledge. He def got bonus points for this.

            I don’t really remember the conversation at this point, but I know that it was super laid back and easy. At the end of the date, we have an awkward hug and I scurry off to my car. When I say scurry, I mean scurry. I do NOT want to stick around for the awkward kiss. Nope. Overall a great date, but then he made his mistake. (Aside: on my way home from the date, my GRANDMOTHER drunk dials me about Lehigh beating Duke. Probably the funniest moment of the whole night because I could barely understand her other than hearing her slur about Lehigh).

            The next day is St. Patrick’s Day. My friends and I have epic plans to go to the Norfolk parade at 8 am and get wasted. I had mentioned these plans to Preston the night before and apparently he took it as an open invite. Around 1 pm, while my friends and I are trashed at some bar, Preston shows up. This displeases drunk Meagan. I feel smothered, and so logically ignore him. Yeah, I know, pretty damn rude, but I was drunk and not thinking logically. Not to mention my myriad of commitment issues. All I can think of is, “Oh shit. He’s following me.” So I grab one of my friends, and we pretty much just leave. Apparently he hung out with my other friends for a while and then eventually went home.

            Now I feel bad about all of that. All my other friends said he seemed like a nice guy. But if I were being honest, I wasn’t that attracted to him in the first place. He’s a great guy, but I really had no physical attraction to him. Call me shallow, but you have to have at least some chemistry with a person to start a relationship. So after St. Patty’s Day, he texted me a couple more times, but we basically just stopped texting.

 Guy #2

            This situation is a little more drawn out that Preston. Bob emailed me shortly after the whole Preston debacle. I think it was less than a week later.  And after texting a bit, we decide to meet in person. Guess where Bob picks to meet? Yeah, the same place I met Preston. Guess it’s a hot date spot. Also, guess what Bob does for a living? That’s right, he’s a Navy Officer. The similarities were kind of uncanny. Oh well. Bob seems nice and sweet and cute, so we will give it a shot.

            I wasn’t nearly as nervous for this date, as I was for the one with Preston. I think because I had just been on one, plus I was on familiar ground. So the initial introduction goes fine. He’s cute. A little preppy but cute. It turns out that he went to the Naval Academy and graduated with my friend Allison. So we had that to talk about. The conversation isn’t as smooth as it was with Preston, but it’s not too awkward. Afterwards, he walks me back to my car because we are parked close, but instead of doing the awkward lingering I just get in and drive away. Kisses are fine on the first date, but I really don’t feel like dealing with awkward, so I avoid it at all costs.

            So after the first date at the end of March, it is Easter and I go to Florida with my family. We continue to text all the time, and I realize that he’s really great. The unfortunate (or maybe fortunate) part is that he leaves on a 5 week training exercise as soon as I get back from Easter break. We agree to email while he’s away, and he texts when there is service. I enjoy the whole long distance thing, as I don’t feel smothered. Although, every now and then he’ll say things like, “I miss you so much. I can’t wait until we are together again.” This freaks me out a little because we’ve only had one date, but whatever. He’s away, so I’m good.

            So Bob gets back from his cruise right before Mother’s Day. I am gone that weekend as well as the next one (for Bamboozle, which is a crazy story within itself. I’m not sure if I even want to share the details of that one in print). I feel bad about being so busy, but he’s super understanding about it all. We continue to talk everyday through all of this time. The weekend I get back from Bamboozle is Memorial Day (so I have a 4 day). I want to go home for a family picnic, but I decide that I’ve haven’t seen Bob in forever and we really need to go on date #2 if we are going to go anywhere (not to mention he is deploying in July, so we should really spend time together if we have any chance of staying together).

            I tell my family I already have plans and can’t go to the picnic, and then Bob and I make arrangements. He had duty Friday, so that day was out (which is good because I needed a night of recovery from all the activity). We make plans to go out Saturday. He was going to come up here, but I decide I'd rather go down there because there's more to do and a lot of places up here are rather ghetto (he wanted to go bowling, but I’m sure the Newport News bowling alley is bad news). We decide I'll come down around 530 Saturday.

So Saturday, I chill by the pool most of the day. At 3 I realize that he hasn't texted me at all which is strange. He normally texts me constantly. So I text him "Hey what's up." He gives me a one word answer, but I don't think much of it. After chilling at the pool, I go shower, shave, paint my nails, do my hair, do my makeup, get dress. I go all out. He's a really sweet guy, and I want to impress him. At 430 I still haven’t gotten any texts from him other than the one word answer. So I text him, "hey what's the plan?" because we never decided where we were meeting. At 515 he responds, "I'm just going to stay here family friends are in town." So I respond "Um, do you want to do something another time? I was getting ready to leave." All he says is, "OK." I haven't heard a word from him since.

Now normally I wouldn't care, but he knew I was supposed to be going to a family picnic Saturday but I decided to stay to go out with him. If he knew he had friends coming into town he could have told me to just go to my picnic. OR if he had let me know before 530 at night, I could have also made it. He never apologized about bailing or anything. I literally was all dressed up with nowhere to go. Of course, I call my parents crying about not being there and ask if I can drive up late (which they say is def not worth it). So I curl into a ball with my Ben and Jerrys and feel sorry for myself.

And since then, I haven't had a single text or call from him, and like I said before, we literally have talked every single day for the past 2 months.WHAT THE FUCK. I was so angry this weekend. No explanation, no nothing. And he made me miss a weekend with my family by not telling me before. So I did the logical thing and layed on my couch feeling sorry for myself all of Sunday and Monday. I feel much better now.